February 29, 2008
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I just went on a date with myself. It all started when I was at the refrigerator. On the door are two quotes which I needed to read. I’d been looking at things all wrong today, thinking about what I didn’t have instead of all the things I should be grateful for. That’s one of the biggest blessings about having had cancer. I can remember very clearly walking in the park, trying to wrap my head around the news, going over how I was going to tell the kids. That feeling of being in DEEP shit is still as vivid today as it was seven plus years ago.
So that’s where I started. I’m in perfect health and just the thought of what a relief that is made me grateful. I decided I was eating too much sugar lately, and I suspect that plays havoc with the emotions. I went upstairs and got ready for the day, had GREAT sex with myself, because rather than bemoan the fact that I don’t have a man I decided to focus on what I do have of him: that amazing kiss. I’ll get some mileage out of that
. Then I took advantage of the last bit of sun and went for a walk with my dog. I got home just as the rain blew in. The phone started ringing, and all three girls called. I feel SO lucky to have such close relationships with them and their partners. I watched Cramer to see what he said about the market being down so badly, and pretty much the message was that things suck right now and they’re gonna suck for a while. My instincts to do nothing — I did buy something today that maybe I shouldn’t have but they had a great quarter, reported after hours last night so they didn’t have a fighting chance today and still they went up a little. That’s when you can get good buys, on a day like today. Anyway, at least I’m not just starting out and I’m not panicked. I know this will pass. It may take a while but I’ve been through worse.
Comments (8)
Your attitude sounds much better after this post. Have I shared with you this site http://www.abraham-hicks.com/. Based on The Law of Attraction this is a wonderful site that will send you a daily quote to see the world through the right lens….try it I’m sure it will be to your liking..marilyn
Cramer’s so crazy! I just did some preliminary research for my afternoon boss (who’s the leading finance professor at our university) – he’s gonna compare Cramer’s recommendations with actual stock shifts and write a paper about it.
I love the talk about great sex with yourself. You rock! I need more women role models who talk about masturbation
You rock, lady. I’m glad you have the attitude you have, and I’m happy to see you keeping your head up. I wish we lived nearby cause I’d invite you to coffee and shopping.
Anyhoo, here’s hoping your weekend is even better. . .
Great sex with myself. I certainly understand THAT one!
Hi,
Thanks for the comment. That day, I just logged in after a long time and visited you to see how you were doing. Happy to see you are doing well.
Hi Prudence,
I was raised in a catholic home and survived a catholic education.
On many Fridays, the only sin I had to confess (catholics now call it reconciliation, I think “confess” is more apt) was “self-abuse”. The penance for “self-pollution” was more severe than for impure thoughts or using the name of god in vain, both of which I also confessed on a more or less routine basis.
Fortunately I cashed in my shares of the christian fund at an early age and never reinvested. I walked away from the church of rome before I really had anything to confess.
Great post.
(smile)
BTW…for your penance light a few candles and take a warm bath before submitting to a long sensual massage from a man with strong hands and amusing stories…
sounds like your day was about perfect timing!