August 27, 2005
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I never know, when people come into my life, what they might mean to me. I can just tell it’s something. My radar goes off. When I was younger I wasn’t that in tune with the Universe but, lately, man.
Maybe it’s what I can mean to them. I wonder if it’s supposed to be a reciprocal thing; you each have something the other needs?
I’m reading a book about a young woman who, at a pivotal point in her life, finds direction from a book she’s read. And it happens a second time with the same author. I threw more wood on the fire, waiting for the coals to be ready, sat back down and read a sentence that changed me. That’s being dramatic. It shed light on something; I needed to know it.
I’ll probably always remember that ah-haaa moment; how I was camping. And what’s eerie is that before it happened I thought of the very afternoon, the moment I first read Thoreau’s “Walden.” I was sitting in a lit class at the University of Oregon, turning my face towards the window so no one would see the tears. It was spring, and I can still remember those light-green trees filtering the sun, how the windows were up high. I was 18 but it took me 30 years to camp. I’m thinking in ten more I might be ready for the cabin.
I thought about the people in my life, those I’ve learned from, and some of them are you. We have a fantastic community here at Xanga, and I learn something every day. Young and old, our teachers come to us in all forms. And when I think I’ve found one I don’t worry any more about what it is I’m supposed to learn, I just try to pay attention, because sooner or later it will come to me.
Comments (12)
really nice posting…
I think it’s a reciprocal thing- I find certain people, online and off- attract me- I feel a need to KNOW them and be around them. Whether they are reciprocating is another thing tho…
amen! i hear you!
Hello, I see you on many xangas I vist, so i wanted to vist your Xanga, so here I am.
I love what you said, and I beleive it to be true. I think we meet people for a certain reason , to learn , a need we might have at the time and it’s wonderful.
I hope you had a good day and have a good tomorrow.
Peace and Love:)
Hi again. To answer your question, no, I live on the South, Arkansas. Was wishing Kira , who lives there well throughout this horrid weather.
Take care.
often, it has been who i can be to another. i’m in a truly remarkable space at the moment where this is reciprocal and i daren’t blink
Thank goodness for your awareness and thank goodness for your awareness. You notice, you learn.
I love these posts where you write yourself as you are, here, by the fire, thinking about reciprocity, about give and take, what we learn from each other on our paths…
I get a really strong visual image of you, too, as you get up, throw more wood on the fire, remembering the tears you held back on reading Walden, and sit back down to reminisce in what seems only a gratitude for the ways we all interconnect, the way we are all guides of one sort or another for each other on our creative and spiritual journeys…
Reciprocity. You know you’ve found a friend when it is with joy (but not always ease) that you freely give and take. I hope I give as much as I get from you, Prudy. Your blog and your energy always enrich me. I enjoy my carefully crafted circle of aunts, brothers, and distant cousins that I find here. Bless you
I believe that we are placed in other’s paths for their benefit as well as our own. Life is so interesting once you throw back the covers. Have a good one.
I really liked reading this. I liked how it made me feel inside, knowing this is a bit my truth as well. I think that’s part of what friendship is, having and freely giving something that the other needs and knowing that your friend does the same thing.
I appreicated that email as well. Sometimes I’d decribe you as friend and sometimes as a mom. Sometimes both and that’s something I admire about you.
I’ve always disliked camping so much. I don’t think I would have gotten along very well with Thoreau and his friend, whose name escapes me.
amen to that.
I truly believe xanga’s enhanced my life.