March 31, 2005
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Edited to add: I just read this again and it sounds like I’m lying to myself.
I had a dream last night that I just remembered. I was reading DenmarkGuy‘s post and he listed “making out” as his favorite activity. In my dream I was walking down a hall with my new husband. In mid-sentence he leaned in to kiss me and it took my breath away. Right there, in front of people passing us in the hall, we were goin’ at it. I miss kisses like that.
I saw Moon’s comment about it being like missing the rain or stars and I used to feel that way, too. It has only been since I’ve given up thinking like that that I’ve found myself happy, not looking to a man for happiness. It’s a huge relief to have learned how to live on my own and I really have no interest in finding a man anymore. I miss kissing, but then I also miss weekends at my beach house. There’s a time for everything.
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hmmm I read this and for me it was like saying
….u missed breathing, the rain, the stars….I think it is
human nature for us to miss love interactions….
Darn, the best I can do is give you a (((hug)))) from an old man. Cheers
human nature, ’tis, i believe. i am once again without, or perhaps on a moonbeam budget instead of in a moonbeam shower. i’ve been without a man for years, am very very good at living in solitude. but it is not my natural state, nor will it ever be. it is for some people, i think. just not for me, or not for this long, anyway.
btw, i wanted to thank you for your thoughtful comments recently. you know, i always appreciate and am enlightened by what you say. ’tis strange, but it’s only now at 62 that i’ve managed to look at myself and see what others see – otherwise i’d of been out there on the lawn myself. lol. and for years, to extend this, i felt that whatever gift i had was tiny and seriously insignificant. so don’t ever sell yourself short – truly you never know what waits around the next bend.
hugs, lily
I know the feeling, I do, I do! It’s been awhile for me too. Where to turn: do I seek, wait to be sought, or remain alone? Questions, questions. Dreams like that seem to be saying, give yourself a break, fall in love…
I’ve been at a clerical job for 2 days, and last night, after the library and pizza, my daughter talked for 3 hours straight before we all went to bed & so there was no time for Xanga…
Hope Seattle and hanging out with your dancing teacher and *everything* else is super wonderful this weekend! I do love trains…
Thinking of you
xo
What can penetrate this utter darkness when we don’t know that there is a door to be opened?
How do we see when we have no way of knowing what to look for?
I know what you mean, there’s something so intimate about a toe tingling kiss.
OOOOOOOOH, well that dream is nice!
How does it sound like you’re lying to yourself??