June 26, 2007
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Went to Seattle with Sam. We learned a lot and had a great time. I could write pages about it but I just met my daughter’s girlfriend — Did I mention the youngest is a lesbian? — and I am a little wrought up. The middle daughter called and said I’d really like her; that everyone agreed she reminded them of me. Hmmm, I had to go for a walk after they left. It’s like I soaked up her energy and the kid has some serious angst. She’s lovely, though. And my dog loved her dog. She and my daughter could pass for sisters. The girl looks like a cross between me and my ex. I can’t wait to hear what he says about her. They are all headed to the beach for the annual bash on the 4th.
My house is clean, which feels nice. And I’m listening to Norah Jones because my daughter forgot the CD so that’s nice. But I can’t shake that energy.
I’m sorry I’ve been so absent. Stuff I don’t want to write about had taken over my soul. Gotta keep better tabs on that.
Comments (20)
Yes, I know about that ‘stuff’ too. Glad that you got away with Sam on an interesting topic and to an interesting place. Even if you’re friends, you have something really large in common!
My sis is a lesbian. She’s never outted to my family for fear of recourse by my sister and her family. She fears that they will not allow the kids around. However, I’ve known full well for 16 or 17 years. It suits me fine. She went thru latent suicidal ideations over it…with religious overtones. It’s not worth those thoughts not to accept those facts. It’s wonderful that she felt that she can come to you so early only. She’s very, very lucky. AND we’re lucky to know you!
You may need a way to fictionalise those things you “don’t want to write about [which might have] taken over my soul” – just enough to get them out into the air, and let you see them from a distance. Great writing exercise too.
Anyway, I always say, “their partner not mine” – it makes acceptance much easier.
Sending you hugs.
I’ve missed your entries lately, but now maybe I’ll have a few moments to get caught up before the next round of shows. I’m glad you’re open to your daughter’s girlfriend, although I know what you mean about someone’s angsty energy rubbing off.
Oh, I almost forgot: I was at a Buddhist wedding last month, and there was someone belly dancing in the basement during the reception. I thought of you.
It’s just so very hard to watch and know that the road she has picked comes with so many boundaries and prejudices.
Some energies feed some are like a pyrana so I’m guessing it’s like the latter.
Don’t bury the things you are encountering because you are embarassed about something, cripes there will be no judgement on this forum…marilyn
Round and round life goes where it stops no one really knows.
I am just glad to see a post. I am also glad that you had a good time with Sam…I cannot write about the men in my life because they all have access to my blog. I thought it might be better to let them see me on a daily bases, what I think, feel and what I am doing. But I have a new herd, and a couple of them seem to hold some promise. We shall see. I too am working hard to pay attention to my emotions and trying to keep tabs on those that serve me not…and pluck them out like weeds.
Blessings my friend,
Keeping tabs to make sure it doesn’t take over? Good thinking. I wonder what the shake out from the Sam roadtrip will be. It always takes a while for me to assimilate things.
This girl sounds interesting to look at. I hope that the angst is just enough and not too depressing. But having residual energy from the meeting is a great sign usually.
I’m curious about what had taken over your soul…but you’re so much more open than I that I dare not ask.
The time with Sam… I suspect there are MULTIPLE stories there.
I do understand why can’t always be so open about it though. I’m certainly not.
Nice to see you posting. Then again, I’ve been pretty absent this spring as well. Glad you liked your daughter’s partner. The guy my lovely daughter currently seems infatuated with is a smart-ass know-it-all. Sorry, it needed to be said.
i’m with ira 100%… on both the writing fiction and the “their partner- not mine!” hang in there!!!!
Saw your name on SavonduJour’s site & had to get a better look at the cute pup in your profile pic. I won’t comment on your entry because I don’t know you well enough & it might feel intrusive. But the puppy is even cuter in the larger view.
I think it’s neat that the lesbian, in this case, is dating someone like her mom (where traditionally she’d date a girl just like daddy). I’m the weird, one, though. In many ways, my husband is like my mom and I am like my dad. (In other ways, though, the roles are more traditional and reversed… but it’s funny to think about.) I especially love the bit about her dog and your dog getting along. *hugs*
I’ve just read all your blogs that I missed. Given your comment on my last post (not sure how to take it), this is probably far more of a comment than you actually want.
I believe that I have bested you in xanga abstinence. Wishing you well in all things. See you around . . .
Yeah. I understand. People often see my name and think “uh-oh” . . .
I hope you have a very enjoyable trip into the wilderness. Read my story whenever you get the chance — no need to rush . . .
Pru…Mia is back…mialucia…new name she just started a few days ago and I thought you’d like to know..marilyn
Saw you stopped by… I’m in hiatus mode. Not sure why. RYC: I always just mentally say “I’m going to Effect a change” with a false sorta Southern accent on the first syllable. Now that I’m thinking about it E is in Effect and vErb. That’s probably how I remember. I look for stuff like that. Like “The princiPAL is your PAL.” Not hardly but you get the gist. Mnemonics are my friend.
prudy…i am behind on the story…gah! will try this week. so sorry.