July 14, 2006
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Been at the river but mostly been writing. Been in the garden, staying close to Spirit. Been cooking, that always makes me feel good. Bridgit may be a pain in the ass but lately she’s all I got. Friends are calling, wondering where I’ve been. I said I’d meet them, here and there, don’t really want to. I’m feeling content in my isolation. I spent all morning on the stock market. It’s remarkable how much money you can lose in such a short time. My Baptist brother-in-law is trying to track my sister down and have her committed. I tried to find her on the 4th of July. She’s hiding out, too.
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You seem really down in the dumps. Could it be that you need companionship more than you ever dreamed? I’m hoping you’ll get out soon, since Mr. Right is right around the corner..I’m thinking that means literally too…marilyn
she’s still missing?? isn’t that scary? or is it ok? i’m enjoying the silence too!
Hiding out could be incubation and processing. I’m glad your friends are keeping in touch with you. You never know when the mood might strike to get out and about again. This tide will turn as well. I say that because I understand the word content and the word hiding and they don’t seem to jibe with each other. This tide will turn as well. It fucking better. (Okay, I was saying that to myself.) Some similarities exist between us right now.
have mercy. in your silence you have so much noise…
I am glad to see your post. I hope the solitude will give more time to write greater product.
I hope your sister will be located soon. I guess your family is worrying sick at this moment.
We all need our down time – our time to refect and escape and be silent. Enjoy yours. . .
It’s good to have solitude once in a while. I hope yours is productive and affirming.
Sometimes you need more solitude than anything and it seems like that’s where you are. The tide will turn. I crave solitude yet I crave connection. The balance is difficult to achieve.
ryc: I totally did that. I covered the burners with these metal cover things.
I understand about not wanting to be out and with face time and I don’t want to be a voice of pressure for you to do that Pru. There is a part of my head that resonates with a care for you though. It’s not a worry, it’s a care.
Oh the coolest thing happened too. My friend is not uptight in the slightest as I feared she would be. She certified in reiki healing and massage (level 2 or something like that) and some other stuff I don’t know about. Why am I telling you? I am drinking wine and thinking of you that’s why. A lot of wine. Namaste and peace be with you.
I so love solitude. Being alone and productive is a warm welcoming place, it breeds contentment within that solitude and when I can get there I’m happy with myself. Can’t always feel that serenity, but I know it is one of my choices. Somehow your post, or my reaction has inspired me to get a move on and get on with my day! That’s a really good thing, thank you. (and if I sound like I’m off in the left wing of psychoville just be glad I’m flowing) OMG I need to shut TFup!
I’ve been awful isolated, too. But in my case I seem to be losing friends. I blogged about it a couple days ago. Solitude is one thing, but when everyone is too busy to see you, it can hurt.
Lynn
that’s what I’m afraid of. that’s what I can’t accept.
and that was RYC, sorry.
There is nothing wrong with enjoying solitude…I could use more of it myself.
RYC: I’m exempt from the lawsuit potential, but the new firm is not overly fond of contractors. Yet. But I’ve already done some work there and will do more. In the meantime, the old team disintegrates but I’ve got plenty to keep me busy. It’s just tough balancing everyone’s expectations but so far so good.
“Dear Prudence” by the Beatles is playing on my mp3 player. It makes me think of you
RYC: Now I’m wondering, in your shoes, would I even bother putting them on?? I’m thinking though that as much as I bitch about the contraption now, I’d want to look the same as I always did. See, simple comment=food for thought!
RYC: You’re probably right about the writing, but the camera has always done my talking for me…it probably always will. It’s my passion where writing isn’t.
..marilyn