June 2, 2006
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I just saw the movie Break-up. I see a lot of movies, they don’t have to be good for me to pick up something I should be thinking about as I write. I’m not sure how much I was bringing with me but, damn, what a somber movie. It adds to my feeling that the person we are attracted to and the person who will appreciate us may never be the same. Finding someone when you’re old and have all this singular history compounds the odds.
The other thing I’m depressed about is the conversation I had with my broker today. He was horrified that I had been under the impression I could eke out a living trading stocks. He about made me promise I would get a job. It reminded me of watching that show fashioned after American Idol, the new one where they audition to be a dancer in Las Vegas. All those people thought they were good enough dancers to audition. I poured over my portfolio, grading myself. It’s true I’ve lost a fair amount of money in the last two weeks but so has everyone. But maybe not as much as I.
I don’t even want to think about what kind of dancer I am. I’ve seen videos of myself, which I was okay with. That was before I started slouching over the computer all day. Bad posture can turn a good dancer ugly. Just a fact.
So I will work harder. I bought three stocks today, two my choice and one, his. The one he talked me into I probably should have waited on but it might not go down again. I still have this idea that I’m good at it for some reason. Just like those dancers.
Comments (14)
You very well may be good at it. Your broker is probably giving you the advice of the odds. It’s like when I have a student who has hoop dreams or professional sports hopes, the huge majority are not going to make it and have to guided gently to realistic options. But darned if a few haven’t actually made it. You could. He is being safe. Your working harder is amazing and that may be the characteristic that sets you apart.
And now I have to think about that notion in your first paragraph. I want to learn to be attracted to the person who is appreciative.
i heard break-up was pretty much a no go.
i saw your comment at bekindandbestrong’s place. i hope your church experience stays positive. i really, really do. this comes from someone hurt all to often by her own church…
blessings.
Sounds like the shackles of the human realm are trying to attach themselves to your ankles? They don’t exist…and I can tell by your rich, personal and wonderful writings that you know this already. For myself…I am in a constant state of cultivating my ability to discern what is real and what is not real. I dance….and therefore it is beautiful and perfect. I desire and deserve love, happiness and prosperity….therefore…I shall have them. I want a joyful and creative adventure for the rest of my years in this body….therefore…I shall create it…and it shall be so.
Oh yes, by the way…I am a nut, I know nothing…but I do enjoy the challenges of life and the processes of growth. Ooh Waa! Create a Great and Joyous Day!
i think you’re thinking like a writer…
i donno about the stocks thing, but if anyone can make $$ at it, you can!
When I first turned over my money to my broker he assured me a monthly income was totally doable..then things shifted to the down side and now I don’t take from it at all..I have other investments that do that for me..we should talk sometime when I’m back home.
Yes, I know that it was agonizing to read and you have to know there was so much I couldn’t even begin to find words for that happened yesterday in particular. We feel as a family that the attitude of their dying center, which is what they claim they USED to do, they have a new campaign on the friggin radio that claims they are all about caring..yaddda yada, well, we told them they forgot to change their tack, that they are still drugging like it was her last day, when in fact she had a stuck bowel. We know in our guts that they quickened her pace toward the dying process by over medicating and treatments of submission. This has got to be the most gut retching experience of my life. Thanks for being a pal and feeling my pain, I really do need that since I can’t give in to my own grief at this time..marilyn
Wishing you the best on those fronts. I think it would be scary to live off of the ever fluctuating stock market.
Risktaker! That’s what I like about you…well, one of the things.
yes, technically, it was the weights, but it was more my fault for not paying attention. and i was mostly kidding about the getting drunk…mostly.
oh, and I’m not 100% sure I didn’t tear anything, but I have been an athelete all my life and have experienced many a tear, and break, and sprain, and hairline fracture, and deep bruising…this is more muscle spazzy…
I have decided if not better by monday that I will see someone…
ryc: His nephew is mildly autistic. There’s much he does grasp and his social skills have greatly improved over the last few years, but some thing, he doesn’t get at all.
thanks for stopping by and commenting. i can’t remember how i got to your blog initially because we subscribe to some of the same blogs…but you made mention of writing morning pages. I love the Artist’s Way. I hope you find it helpful
RYC at my blog on The Artist’s Way. You mentioned it at Ashes’ site. I don’t think I know any bread makers…LOL…and I’d recognize that doggie anywhere! Have fun and enjoy your artist’s dates, too! (I didnt comment the first time I came cuz you mentioned how hard it was for you to keep up with all your subs already..LOL)…stop by anytime. What kind of art do you do?
I looovvvveeeed The Artist Way pages. Though 2 years ago…I destroyed most, 90 % of my journals along with my Artist Way Journal. For me it was necessary to let go…I was very involved in a relationship, I even considered marriage (of course not believing in marriage…it was not going to happen) and thought that in order for me to fully embrace a future it was time to let go of the past. So I sat down and had a huge letting go ceremony. I was sure that I would regret it later…but I haven’t. But those morning pages got me through a truly rough period in my life. And help me to establish the discipline of daily writing.
Have a great Sunday Prudence. I have to get ready for work. Ooh, though I appreciate having a job I long for the day when it is just “ Gotta go…I am heading to studio.” >>>smiling<<<
I want you to know that I gain so much from reading your posts too! There is a small group here in Blogland that feeds my soul and encourages me through their honesy, strength, courage, tenacity and perseverance. You are one of them….thank you!
I am with your broker
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It is best you had another source of income other than stocks. They are far too unreliable!
Personally, as much as I have had experience with stocks, I find that my greatest success is related to the fact that I don’t need to be successful. By removing dependence from a relationship whether it be with stocks or individuals, the likelihood of success increases. How does that sound?
Good luck with stocks and sax.
Bob