December 15, 2005
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Jeez, you guys, here I was all ready to change my ways. And when I’m at the hospital I will, and probably with family. But with my friends maybe I will continue to say it like I see it. I have to tell you how relieved I was Island Mama and Anam, because I spent some time worrying about what I said to both of you. Anam I have history with so I figured she’d forgive me. But I felt like I’d put some distance between us. island_mama, I’m not sure what changed for you but I have to say you are one of my very, very favorites. And your pal, pina_la_nina, I really went out on a limb there. A couple of times. And I knew it was a risk but she’s such an amazing woman with SO MUCH POTENTIAL. That woman, I swear, she strikes me as having some serious power. When she’s tapped into it, her writing is a thing of beauty, fiction or non. It’s her soul; it enriches the words. And it’s her brain; she sees all the dimensions, the layers to life. Anyway, those are the people I was thinking I might have been a little more reflective with, in my listening.
Okay, back to me:) I had another bizarre day, like the one I didn’t know what to make of. It started out with our annual breakfast. The nurse who co-chaired my support group and who’d been with the hospital FOREVER retired but she still goes to the annual Breast Cancer Symposium in San Antonio and when she gets back we have this breakfast meeting so she can fill us in on the latest research. This is probably really shitty but my main objective was to find out what to invest in. And I know that’s probably a conflict of interest because when I started snooping around at the hospital about up-and-coming drugs and who manufactured them my boss said it was. Woops.
So sue me. Anyway, when I got home with the name of the drug I looked up the pharmaceutical company and saw that the stock is unaffordable because they manufactured the drug that was last year’s darling. In that one year the stock more than doubled. Soooo, I started snooping around and found that there is a new test they give to patients who receive this drug so I researched that and its stock is much more affordable. I also found out that this new drug works in tandem with another drug put out by a third company and that stock is affordable, too. Funny thing is that all these stocks are down. Which is odd because the conference ended on the 11th. Hmmm.
As I’m getting deeper and deeper into the drugs and the research I latch onto a site for Johns Hopkins and the material is so dense I don’t quite get it all but I know I am onto something important. Like I have a major hard-on over it. Now, some of you are going to think this is really bizarre but the acupuncturist I go to has discovered he is an intuitive. I have been going to him since 2001 and at that point he had no idea he was. I called him up worried about what this scientific stuff meant to me. He said it wasn’t about my health it was about “the work you do” ??? My column? My volunteer work? What work? I don’t work.
So how the hell am I going to figure this stuff out and what am I going to do with it? My next article is due by the 23rd but I don’t know that the hospital would let me print it. It’s not the direction they’re going in at this point, I don’t think, and it’s still in the clinical trial phase but it’s happening and people should know about it. And how cool for the director to read about it in my column.
Comments (11)
How wonderful that you are doing all that research. I would like to see your next article. Judi
You’d be surprised at how much stuff subconsiously comes out of this—
Ziggy Stardust
Ziggy played guitar, jamming good with Weird and Gilly, the spiders from Mars. [MY band was alternatively called *The Kotex from Mars* or the *Co-text* depending on where we played
]
He played it left hand but made it too far, became the special man, then we were Ziggy’s band.
Ziggy really sang, screwed up eyes and screwed down hairdo
like some cat from Japan, he could lick ‘em by smiling, he could leave ‘em to hang.
Came on so loaded, man, well hung and snow white tan.
So where were the spiders while the fly tried to break our balls?
Just the beer light to guide us, so we bitched about his fans and should we crush his sweet hands?
Ziggy played for time, jiving us that we were voodoo, the kids were just crass,
he was the nazz with God given ass. He took it all too far, but boy could he play guitar.
Making love with his ego, Ziggy sucked up into his mind like a leper messiah. [Ever clicked the EminemsRevenge link???]
When the kids had killed the man, I had to break up the band. Oh yeah, Ziggy played guitar
I’m also not sure where all this will take you, but I’m willing to bet it will be interesting!
Well, I am seein a whole new side of you here lately. Thanks for the sharing. What you do sounds pretty interesting. Cheers
let it take you where it goes and see… who knows … and write the article- then find a publisher!
ryc: what you noticed is a poorly done transititonal section- it is awkward and after about 15 rewrites, i let it go until i can figure out how to fix it. as i learn this craft, i learn there is a lot i don’t know how to do it- and it’s marked as something to fix when i learn how to fix it!
“Like I have a major hard-on over it.” <— I love it to bits. And am excited about your research and your subtle civil disobedience, subverting the system by learning what is true and trying to go against “the direction they’re going.” Like jassmine, I’d love to read the article!
I think giving questioning, sometimes hard-to-hear (or read) responses show better listening skills than just parroting back what someone’s already said. Don’t worry about offending me with your responses (sheesh, especially not after such flattery as you’ve given me here) I would prefer feedback with teeth in it than a soggy pair of dentures any day.
I prefer the honesty. Sometimes its just our phrasing that makes us go wide eyed. I know that your intent is good, born of positive. That’s what matters most to me. Honesty encompasses what we want to, and often, what we don’t want to hear.
Just be you, thats what endears me.
Pru, Not all work is working for pay, but the work we do here on earth to achieve our goals here on this plane..marilyn
I have thought on many occasions that you would be such a lovely neighbor. How I’d love to drag you into this charming little village I have found. I suspect we’d have loads of fun!
And I back you 100% on pina la nina. That girl amazes me. She has kept me aloft in the most trying of times and has inspired me in the most magical of ways. To feel so attached to someone you have never met seems strange to me but in cases like pina and yourself it’s impossible to ignore. Spirits can certainly mingle across vast distances.
You are a clever one with the stock research! You will be rich thinking this smartly if you aren’t already. Thank you for the links, I will be checking them out too. And a big giant THANK YOU for the comments on my story idea. They were very useful. Reflective listening may be what is required for counseling, but I prefer an opinion when it comes to writing things. Critique is invaluable. I try to train students to give it, but no one wants to do the tough job of being evaluative. No one gets better at anything if he or she is only ever told “good job” and given no direction for improvement. You could easily teach. Your opinions/observations carry weight and have value. Thanks again.