October 19, 2004
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I just broke up with my boyfriend, my washing machine is leaking, and the market is down, STILL. I’ve been trying to look the other way re: the boyfriend and the market, thinking it will get better. But it hasn’t. Time to cut my losses. I feel very cold-hearted. Got to be. Now if I have the nerve to do…See, I can get rid of the guy, but I just don’t want to part with some of these stocks. I’ve been trying to get myself to do the thing where you automatically sell after a certain amount of loss. Easy come, easy go. I’m spending too much time on here and not enough time tracking the stocks. I wanted to go look at that site for the obsessed, but I’m spending enough time as it is on here. I figure those people would be right up my alley. The whole point of this was supposed to be practice. Well, I’m not writing anything pithy, I’m just spilling my guts. I think I was trying to impress you, praying that someone would subscribe to me; that if I got some subscribers, that would be enough validation to start my book. I read some of you and it’s clear that you are writers. Some of your sentences take my breath away, they’re so perfect. What I need to do is sign up for a class, and just start writing for a teacher. Winter term, you can hold me to it.
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I don’t know anything about either stocks or boyfriends. I never had any. But life in general doesn’t remain the way it is. It is always changing. Some changes we like, some we don’t. Just hang on. I am not sure whether I am writing this to you or to myself.
As for writing here, first we are writing for ourselves. After the initial pourout is done, we will find ourselves as better writers. The others, readers or writers, are only passers by. Don’t let their presence or abscence disturb you. If you feel you want to take up a class, do it. But even without that, you are writing well. Take care.
Oh, don’t back out on me now! You have an audience, however small, who are listening and know you both have something to say and the means to say it well. Don’t sell yourself short (see you can use cliches in the comment box even if you can’t use them in your story.)
There’s a writer’s site I go to that teaches you more than most teachers could – the method is called “BIC” butt in chair. You sit down and write. Get to The End and then go back and worry about how to make it better. I highly recommend that.
If taking a course is a means to the same end (ha ha very punny!) then you mind find you can save yourself some of that stock money.
You know, I think practice on xanga improves people’s writing quite a bit. There is no real world judging, and you can find your “voice”.
Namaste
I rather prefer the sites where people just write because they like to write and share their blogs rather than the self-conscious writers, although there are a few exceptions to that. Someone once wrote to me about my voice and how confused I was, then some months later they wrote how pleased they were I had found mine. It was news to me!
Generally I find that the Real Writers demand a level of attention I don’t want to give because they want to share too much, endlessly, with every possible adjective, adverb and sunset description that occurs to them. They sometimes have big audiences but often of other Real Writers and I think its mutual backscratching more than real appreciation. I have edited, professionally, all kinds of writing from my own music reviews to political autobiographies and to me the key to writing well is brutal editing.
You write fine. Don’t worry about an audience it doesn’t reflect your content, quality of writing or anything other than either you are tickling people’s fancy (temporarily, usually) or leaving a lot of links: Xanga is a microcosm of the web.
Try Nanorino. See BrendaClews
((I never edit comments but ramble on and on!)